Ive gota stay on top of this

starting the new me

first off id like to say that i want the hold me back!!!! the old me was perfect 5'5 98 lbs and happy i loved it and so did my husband. not saying he doesnt love me now but i dont love me now and yes alot of it has to do with my two battles with cancer and the recent birth of my daughter. trust me i dont blame my daughter for my weight gain at all and i would never take back any moment of being pregnant with her.but the new me is not the me i wanna be.ITS DISCUSTING!!! I CANT STAND IT AND I WANT ME BACK.the new me is 5'5 225 and fat yuck!!! ive got gross thighs and an not so nice looking stomache and my tiny waste is gone along with my pretty legs and my color bone. so as of a week ago ive been limiting myself to 800 colories only drinking a weight loss shake for breakfast, a piece of fish for lunch and another weight loss shake for dinner. i never eat after 5 if its after 5 and i havent eaten ill fill my self with water.the main reason im blogging on this site is because i love what so many of you have to say am looking for support to keep me going any tips or advice are always welcome.